Perdóname pero nunca olvido!

On the eve of one year away to the day, I watched a life literally slip through my fingertips, ugh and that feeling of failure and selfishness and inadequacy starts to consume you, mixing with loneliness, and the new and very real understanding that there are infinite wells of issues so deep they are never ending, yet as the sun rises so does the stronger feelings and knowledge, that you can and will never stop believing in the light, in the fight for better, and those stuck in the bottom of those wells will only have a chance if we refuse to stop fighting, to take their pain and let it transform us, and so it will go... "But I will hold on hope And I won't let you choke On the noose around your neck And I'll find strength in pain And I will change my ways I'll know my name as it's called again http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y

I don't want to come down

I can feel myself slipping, every day it's a bit easier, I think of you with less pain in my stomach, and for once in my life I dont want to get better, I dont want to escape the pain without you. I don't want to leave you in my dust, because I know you are not escaping, I don't want to leave you, the pain I feel for you connects me to you makes me a better person, makes me strive to save you, and if I can not save you I dont want to get better, because knowing you and your pain is the most powerful and important thing I have done in this life,i hate to think of returning to safe and content normalcy without taking you with me, I am losing the deepest most beautiful part of my soul.