I can feel myself slipping, every day it's a bit easier, I think of you with less pain in my stomach, and for once in my life I dont want to get better, I dont want to escape the pain without you. I don't want to leave you in my dust, because I know you are not escaping, I don't want to leave you, the pain I feel for you connects me to you makes me a better person, makes me strive to save you, and if I can not save you I dont want to get better, because knowing you and your pain is the most powerful and important thing I have done in this life,i hate to think of returning to safe and content normalcy without taking you with me, I am losing the deepest most beautiful part of my soul.
